Reflection of time

1. My poem If you love me is by far my most favorite post/piece that i have written within this quarter. It more accurately describes my feelings for my most recent relationship. I don't exactly know why i decided to write about something so close to my heart but i did.. along with my "A Poem" more accurately describes what i went through with the death of my cousin... "His hopes were shot and blown into bits, with one little bullet and a goodbye wish" i reached my tip of depression when my cousin i looked up to like the older brother i never had died. Then my "Favorite quote" 

“People fear because they imagine. Imagination is the power of all the emotions combined. People imagine things because they do not understand them. It’s more terrifying imagining a future that provides more pain. It’s not that people are not afraid to die. They are scared to imagine…death.”
-Kishin Asura

This quote is one that i live by in the fact summarized it simply means, "Fear is the product of imagination" people fear what they imagine, the more you imagine the monster under your bed and think about it. the worse it becomes. it is like trying to wish something away. when in actuality the more you think about it the worse it becomes because you focus on it more.

2. In all honesty i have read quiet a few pieces so its hard to remember them. however they were all wonderful posts and writings from my fellow classmates.

3. Setting up my blog? i obtained absolutely nothing from that in all honesty. if you were hoping to have me write something about being better with computers, from the guy who is on a Robotics team. Ha. But i came up with the name for my blog because i am a gamer. Gaming is something i do to get my mind of things. Who do i think read it? Not many people. the ones who didn't i don't mind it. but the ones who have been keeping up with my blog thank you for putting up with my crap. and in all honesty I'm not going to continue to use it for i have no reason to.

4. The kinds of things i wrote in my journal were the work we have done in class and more personal stuff that i needed off of my shoulders. somethings that i just needed to get out. i wouldnt really want anyone to read it. its mostly personal stuff. I migh actually continue to journal. it allows an outlet for my aggression and depression. it keeps me off my games and stops me from ruining my eyes with more senseless games.

5. entry from my journal 

[link] (when i get it scanned mostly cause this page must be fully seen with the drawing)

6.My favorite piece i have written

If you love me...
You wouldn't need me to give you a reason to stay

You wouldn't walk out and be on your way

When you love me you remain

You wouldn't need to Ascertain

I would not need to beg or plead

Just so that you wouldn't leave

When the time comes i hope we'll know

If your love was real, Or mearly a show

If you love me...

When i found that your love wasn't real it hurt

I made a mistake, that i know i couldn't avert

But when i found that you suffered more

My heart became sore

I had done so much wrong

I just hope that from this you become strong

Move on past my mistake

When your life is your to make

Dont dwell on what others do

You have a full life to look forward to

Move on, be happy

If you love me...

 7. I have been working on a story for a while now. just a little free thing to write that is already about 5 full notebook pages. i get a sense of calm out of writing. a place where i can let my emotion go.

8. Nope

9. Dovahbear

Just needed to share these..

Just watch these.

Pt. 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?annotation_id=annotation_956122&feature=iv&src_vid=5L3DMJB8yGM&v=v-CS8L_8LBk

Pt. 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5L3DMJB8yGM


Dovahbear

With this mighty hammer

With a hammer a man can build many things. With a hammer a man can destroy many things.When men put up the Berlin wall with a mighty hammer, they didn't create. But instead destroyed lives on both sides of the wall. It broke apart friends, family, loved ones and neighbors. While creation is deemed as good it can lead to destruction. While destruction can lead to the re-creation in its place. Destruction is not bad and nor is creation good. it is simply a way of how we perceive.  

The Movies

• My Favorite movie......i have no idea in all honesty
• Movies i don't really care for: "Chick Flicks"
• I don't watch movies often at all.
• Friends and a comfy seat, cause if I'm sitting in one spot for more then an hour i need to be comfy
• Take a look at how you scored on the Big Five personality dimensions below.
  Your scores, compared with the responses of other people, suggest that you may be described as follows:
  
  YOU ARE 17% EXTROVERTED. You are introverted, reserved and serious. You prefer to be alone or with a few close friends.
  
  YOU ARE 42% AGREEABLE. You are hard-headed, sceptical, proud and competitive. You tend to express your anger directly.
  
  YOU ARE 67% CONSCIENTIOUS. You are dependable and moderately well-organised. You generally have clear goals and are able to set goals aside.
  
  YOU ARE 50% EMOTIONALLY STABLE. You are generally calm and able to deal with stress, but you sometimes experience feelings of guilt, anger and sadness.
  
  YOU ARE 67% OPEN TO NEW EXPERIENCES.
  I think they hit me straight on here..... literally...

• If my life story was made into a movie i would be played by -insert witty character here- cause i don't watch many movies.
  



The meaning of Purple-



Purple:

This color is associated with the royalty and ceremony. The purple flower is a token of pride, dignity and success. Purple blooms represent admiration and accomplishment.



(Third street saints from Saints Row)

I am Royalty

I am the definition of Dignity

I am full of Pride

I'm not giving it up until Ive died

I represent Admiration

For I am the color of Origination

My determination only breeds Success

You cant fight you can only coalesce

time to hold the Ceremony

Cause i am once again the only

one left standing

only one thing left to say

All y'all need to make way

If you love me...

If you love me...
You wouldn't need me to give you a reason to stay

You wouldn't walk out and be on your way

When you love me you remain

You wouldn't need to Ascertain

I would not need to beg or plead

Just so that you wouldn't leave

When the time comes i hope we'll know

If your love was real, Or mearly a show

If you love me...

When i found that your love wasn't real it hurt

I made a mistake, that i know i couldn't avert

But when i found that you suffered more

My heart became sore

I had done so much wrong

I just hope that from this you become strong

Move on past my mistake

When your life is your to make

Dont dwell on what others do

You have a full life to look forawrd to

Move on, be happy

If you love me...

I am bad at poems.

Diamante:

Deadpool

Red, Loud-mouth
Slashing, Slicing, Shooting, Cursing
Katana, Pistol, Beans, Tortilla

sitting, smelling good, being devoured

Delicious, heaven
Chimichangas

That is my poem

Haiku:

死　の　始め

人生 の　後
真　の　平和

Shi no ha-ji-me

ji-n-se-i no a-to

shi-n no hei-wa

Death is only the beginning

there is life after death

there you will find true peace

Tanka

神　の　家
得意　じや　ない
何も　しな
世界　の　問題
人間　を　来る

Ka-mi no i-e

to-ku-i ji-ya na-i

na-ni-mo shi-na

se-ka-i no mo-n-da-i

ni-n-ge-n wo ku-ru

The house of god

does no good

it does nothing

when the worlds problems

come from mankind

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Me putting my Japanese5 skills up for that.